What do I look for in someone?

Don’t get me wrong. There were times I had thought I need to find someone perfect like in a fairy tales. What girl doesn’t? If I had gotten married before I find out the truth about a perfect person I probably would have an awful marriage. I’m truly thankful that God kept me from getting married so that I can really find myself and know myself of who I am. He also had taught me many things about people. No one is perfect. No matter how many times we study the Bible, sing songs, and talk to Abba. We still are imperfect. Abba doesn’t except us to be but He also give us the grace to try again. His grace is unending. How amazing is that!

Back to the subject of finding someone. After moving from my hometown in NY, not only had I grown up being away from everyone I’ve known. It’s refreshing to being mentor under someone who have grown wiser. My mentor have trains me to think of what is my goals in life, what is my dreams in life.

In the process of learning and reading to improve my skills. My mentor had told me that I would need to lists all the characteristics I would want to see in a man. So I did that. She then said find the 5 things I listed and then find someone who have those 5 things. The rest will follow because God will continue to work on him. Now there this book that I’ve been reading and it blow me away. I know I’ve heard of it before but it didn’t clicked with me until I read that sentence. It said, "(God) I can’t trust you with his heart until you trust Me with yours."

There’s another one that shook me to my core. When praying for the right person, you must become the right person for the right person you’re praying for.

This book I’ve been reading called, "31 days prayers for your future husband"....in this book it has open many ways to pray for your future partner. Even with words they have in it I still have many more added by my own. With more praying, it drawn me so much closer to Abba that I’m starting to become more like Him. Starting to think like Him. In that process He is also working on me. Changing me in a way that He knows will make His heart glad but also for the right person that this person is praying for. I know He’s still working on me because I would feel His presence so strongly in a sense that I would know what He wants me to do.

The 5 characteristics I have chosen to see in future partner.

1. Love God

2. Love others

3. Compassionate

4. Honest

5.Gracious 

The rest of the characteristics I have listed will follow. Because I know that Abba will continue to work on him just as He will continue to work on me. Get this, along with those I will take his flaws. That’s what make him unique. If I don’t take his flaws then I won’t find anyone who have only the flawless. With his flaws is not only make him unique but it’ll also in a way you know his true self. So ladies (and men), here an advice, follow God and listen to Him as He guide you. If He guide you in that direction that He is leading you to this person then go. If not, don’t pursue it. It’s not worth your time.

So men if you want to listed the characteristics you want in a lady, go ahead. It’ll help you to keep that as your goal to look for in someone. Remember to take her flaws just as she does with you.

God’s blessings on you all for your journey through life, finding someone and blessings on those who have found someone already.

THE DAY I ALMOST DIDNT MEET JESUS

I almost didn't meet Jesus. Let me tell you why.

I remember the day when my younger brother, Jesse would be sitting on the counter talking with my mom. Telling her that he's ready to accept Jesus. She told him he isn't ready because he's too young but he insisted that he is ready so they both prayed. He was 5 when he accepted Jesus. My mom thought I would be ready to accept Jesus because I was older then Jesse to understand about Jesus. So she led me to their bedroom at first I thought I was in trouble cause that's where I usually go if I'm in trouble but she said no she just want to talk to me about Jesus. She told me about Jesus which I've heard so many times, but never understood. So I pretended to accept Jesus, but never really did.

Growing up in a Christian home is great. But being a non-believer of Christ can make it difficult life for someone who doesn't really understand who Jesus and God the Father is. Even with going to church and hearing about Jesus I still didn't understand. Reading bible story and praying every night, I still didn't understand. I hated it because I didn't understand this truth that is surrounding me everywhere I go. Hated going to church; didn't understand the story, hated praying because I didn't understand this Being I'm talking to. 

Now let's fast forward to 3 years later, I was 10 years old, my family and I went on family vacation to visit both my grandparents one in NY and other in SD. Last trip is to my dad's parents in SD before heading home. What I saw of my grandpa, he didn't look good, I signs to my mom and asked her why is he sick? She signed to me that he got something that he doesn't get better from. I was really upset because I loves my grandpa, I didn't want him to be sick. My dad's parents raised horses, so whenever chance I got, I'd go and see them. While walking out to the field to meet them, I started to think about my grandpa, feeling angry and crying not understanding why he is so sick that he can't be better. Last day with them as we drove away I looked behind me seeing that my grandma was taking my grandpa to the hospital, that's the last I saw of him.

On August 25, 1992; We got home late that night then we got the phone call from my grandma that grandpa had died. I started to cry again. I signed to my mom and asked her, "Will I see him again?" She said, "Yes, in Heaven." I asked her, "How?" Finally for the first time I understood the truth about Jesus and why He came to this earth as she share with me the story that I heard so many times before; then she and I prayed together, after I prayed. I felt immediate joy and peace. I was not afraid. I would be singing anything about Jesus.

I no longer hated going to church, I wanted to learn as much as I can about Jesus and our Father. I would ask my mom many questions that even led her to study the Bible to give me answers to my questions. I love praying because I now know who this Being is and who has become my Father that I can talk to at anytime and about anything.

So the reason I put that title in, I almost didn't meet Jesus is, if my grandpa hadn't died from cancer, it would not inspired my question to my mom about Jesus. I would not have met Jesus just when I needed Him. True, God may try another way for me to meet Him but if it hadn't happened then there wouldn't be 2 rejoicing in Heaven. Because as Jesus spoke in His parables Heaven rejoices when one is found and another has come home.