Pondering Thoughts

As I am getting to know God, my Father....He always have this mysterious character, but when getting to know Him, there is a feeling of joy and peace in His Presence. I have to talk to Him to know what it feels like. I can't always assumes that I know what someone is saying if I haven't have that experiences. I know that when I'm thirsting for something, that's longing to fill my heart, that's unexplainable yearning, I try to fill that with everything I see, but it doesn't satisfies it. It always seeking for more. But when I come to the Presence of God, I felt the peace, the unexplainable peace that no peace can compare to it. It's a peace, that clam the mind, heart, and soul. It's like the yoga, but it's not the kind that I have to do to feel that, it just in that Presence that I feel that. He said to me, "My child, let me fill that longing. The longing that won't need to be fill again." I said, "Okay, Lord God, please fill that longing that I try to fill with everything." He said, "If you stay with Me, that peace won't leave you. It'll always be there even in times of trouble. I'll be with you always. But if you leave me, that peace won't be there. You'll feel the discord in your heart." Every time I come to His Presence, I feel that joy and peace that won't go away. When I come to His Presence, I not only felt joy and peace, I also felt love. Everywhere I go and see, I see His unconditional love. Everything, like in nature, trees growing, flowers blooming, that's His creativity. Everywhere I go, I smile or laughs when things like that cross my path, cause I know, that's Him taking the time to remind me, He cares and want to share that with me. I am reminded everyday that He's right beside me. He ask me, "Will you let Me be a part of your every moments? Not just an hour or a day, but every moments." I said, "I am trying, Lord, to let You in every moments and not a day or an hour, or a week. I do ask of You, please change me to become more like Your Son. I want to be a vessel that is completed, before I go home. " I'm so amazed that He's patience with me, waiting. There were times I would rebel, cause I didn't like that change, but then He said, "it won't be beautiful if you don't let Me." I know that there is a longing in me to be perfect, but that perfection is broken by the fall of man, which is sin. Even when I am saved by Jesus from my own sins, I still have a sinful nature in me. I won't have that perfection until I die or when Elohim take me home.